Wait, What?!

It's amazing how much I care about things that don't directly affect me, or even indirectly affect me. My dad's ex wife, my old stepmother is pregnant. Or so I've heard somewhere along the rumour mill. To be completely honest, I'm worried. I'm worried about the new baby, I'm worried about her being too old for children, but mostly I worry about her children, the kids I have called my brother and sister for the last ten years.

Tiana has always fought for her mother's attention, and she is not perfect, although no one is, but it seems that everything she wants is only just out of reach. With a new baby, Tiana will be lost in the background, and I don't know how to let her know that I will be here for her. Always.

Deborah if you're reading this: Congratulations. And I'm sorry, you know more than I ever desired for you to know. Good luck on this new adventure, but I hope that you heed what I say. Your daughter will always be jealous. Don't let her down. I'll always be here for my sister if and when she needs me. Just make sure she knows that.

The Fault in Our Stars

Caution: *Spoilers* Non Spoiler-y post yet to be written 

To Dear Mr. John Green, 

How could you?! How could you create such a magnificent, attractive, real character, make me fall completely in love with him (as many of your readers have) then rip him away from me? 

It has been several days since I read those final lines of such a superb book, and it has stayed with me, hovering around my conciousness. The book itself has not left my side. I have flicked numerous times  through its pages, rereading various lines, letting them linger in my thoughts. 

It is a rare thing to find a book such as this. A book that stays with you long after turn the final page. A book with perfect characterisation blending fiction with true humanity. A book that is quite likely to mould with your being, never letting you go. This is how John Green writes. After reading Paper Towns, it was months before I could pick up another book, everything else paled in comparison. I'm not going to lie, the actions of Margo Roth Spiegelman, and even the thought process of Q have some effect on the decisions I make in my own life and the way I feel about certain things and events. The Fault in Our Stars is another such masterpiece. I will never look at a person with a missing limb the same again. 

I have bought Looking for Alaska (from eBay, as it does not appear to be available in Australia) and I cannot wait to hold it in my hands and move through it's pages and what is sure to be another amazing novel and thought provoking story. 

Mr. John Green the effort and care you put into weaving your novels is absolutely inspiring and I cannot wait for another story to evolve at your fingertips. I appreciate and am inspired by everything you do for us, and await with anticipation everything you have for us in the future.

DFTBA