Acceptance

All the time things are written and said about teenagers and their search for identity. It is said so often that it is almost a cliche, and in my mind this wasn't true. Until now...

It seems that I have been striving for acceptance and to feel like I belong again. After being torn from a school and the friends I was comfortable with I was thrown into a new world where all the rules have been changed and in stead of being the confident, happy person I had become with my friends I have become a shy, quiet girl who fades into the background. It seems no one knows who I am.

So I've been at this school for two months now, I'm no longer the new girl, but I still haven't found my place. they organise things around me and I always take a step back to avoid being involved. I am isolating myself. Not for the first time.

Nothing is different at home. Everything about this situation feels temporary, this room, this house, this life. Like one day I'm going to wake up and be somewhere that I was meant to be. I feel like things are still changing.

So for tonight I am going to close my eyes and drift into a world of silhouette dreams and wait for tomorrow.

xxx